Tuesday, January 4, 2011
A new year
2011 is here. The new year arrived full of fun, laughter and hope of new and exciting things to come - a momentary illusion. Inevitably the cloud pressed in upon me once again. Depression. Sucks. Three days into the new year and my life has returned to status quo. Although I know that I am the only one that can change my circumstances, I feel powerless to do so. Familiarity is comfortable regardless of how uncomfortable it is. Four days passed and I didn't leave the house. I haven't been back to church. My heart is rebellious. Perhaps this is my wilderness experience? Or is that just another excuse to stay in my comfort zone though I find no comfort there?